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Concord, California, United States
I am a sometimes-writer, everyday mama, creative failure and experimental cook. I am interested in living a beautiful life, spending time with my family and making things that I can feel proud of. When I'm by myself I'm usually outside. Don't bother calling because chances are that I didn't bring my cell phone because I couldn't find it. If you see me walking, it's because I lost my keys and if you see me with only one child... I'm probably in big trouble.

Friday, September 3, 2010

Figuring it out

I've been toying with a lot of plans for the future. Should I run away to India and live on the streets of Bombay selling clay beads to American tourists? Should I continue to be a stay-at-home mom who spends all day making her floors shine, is available to pick her kids up from school at any time, who volunteers at the school three days a week, who makes sure that her children come home to fresh baked goods, dinners that take all day to prepare and sharpened pencils that are ready for homework? Should I go back to school? Should I get a part time job? Should I start my own business? Should I be lazy? Should I be creative? What in the world should I do with my time now that my kids will be in school full time?

I have thought and thought and thought and thought about this but I always come up empty handed. I love being a mom. Seriously, I do. And I don't really want to go and get a part time job at the local Whole Foods. I just don't think that I'd be happy. But most of what I love about being at home is my kids. And with my kids gone, I just don't know that I want to be at home.

Do I want a career?

I've really struggled with finding something that I can really imagine myself doing. I'd definitely need to go back to school. I've been thinking that I'd really like to get involved with social work. I've always wanted to help people. I've especially always wanted to work in a women's center... or own my own women's center. I could always go back to school and get a master's of social work. But I feel like I should be sure about it before I do it.

How do you become sure about this?


  1. Oh, oh, oh, Anna. I can't wait to talk to you. I'm going through the EXACT SAME THING, except I still have a kid in the house, so I'm feeling very trapped and antsy. Not that I'm even sure I want a job or career, as I really want to be Class Mom, too! Ugh. So hard.

    I think the solution is for us to start our own business together so that we can cover for each other when Mom-ming obligations arise. Okay? Now, I just need you to come up with the brilliant business idea. And, of course, the money to finance it. No problem, right??

  2. Hey Lorien,

    I can't wait to see you on Monday and talk through all these things? Are you okay with us popping over or would it be easier to meet up somewhere? We're going over to our storage facility and then by the Rivas' for a little while. But we're free after that! The girls are really, really looking forward to seeing you guys!