The girls and I flew out of San Francisco on the red eye to Naples last Wednesday night and got here early on Thursday morning. Abandoning all reason, care for beauty, aging and health, I continue to be a sun-worshipper. There is just something about the sunshine that is like medicine for me. Laying waterside, pool or ocean, with a book and a cool drink makes me feel incredibly joyful. I love watching the girls playing without anywhere to go or anything that has to get done. I love California, but since moving there our lives have been incredibly hectic. Between the accelerated demands of private school education, all of the girls' extracurricular activities and their social lives, Jay and I have had very little time for ourselves or each other. My days have been pretty saturated with the stuff of new surroundings. Not only settling in, but errands, cleaning, caring for Sidney Holler's failing health and trying to help Groovy James assimilate into his new family. On top of that, I have my crafts, which I've been trying to make a little time for each day while the girls are at school. There's a project waiting for me at home, on hold, that I can't wait to return to.
Jay is sitting this vacation out. His new job is simply too new for him to leave for a week, which I completely understand. He's begun taking on some real responsibility there and is coming home feeling happy, satisfied and fulfilled by his job with Twitter. I'm crazily proud of and excited for him. He's definitely found his place in the world and the culture there suits him. He's going to be working 12 hour days and will have every Wednesday, Thursday and Friday off, plus he'll have every other Saturday off. We are really looking forward to this. Honestly, Jay has worked a lot of 12 hour days in his career, but done it 6 or 7 days a week, instead of 3 or 4. I have a feeling that every week will feel like a vacation. I am really looking forward to the summer, when we can take advantage of our days together. We can choose to be lazy and enjoy our new backyard, or to adventure together as a family. Speaking of family adventures, on the tail of one huge move there is already talk of another. It looks as though we may have the opportunity to move internationally with the girls in 2013. This, of course, is a tough call that I think we should revisit at the end of 2012. At the moment, I'm exhausted by what feels like constant relocation. I want my girls to feel normal and for things to be quiet for awhile. Also, what about our pets? I do not think that Sidney could survive a flight in cargo, so she'd need to be re-homed. In and of itself, that feels like an impossible obstacle to overcome. On the other hand, we have always said that if offered the opportunity to live internationally with our children, we'd take it. My time abroad was certainly more an education than college and I do wish the same for my children. So, I am going to focus now on making our home in California, keep an open mind and just wait and see what happens next year.
So often, when I'm busy I fall into some unhealthy ruts. For instance, I drink too much wine and not enough water. I don't get enough exercise. I eat the leftover toast off of my children's plates. These small things really add up and work against me. I have done a little soul searched over the last few days and have decided to make some changes when I go home. Truthfully, I feel pretty terrible when I act in unhealthy ways, and when I fall into these types of bad habits things like my weight feel out of my control. So, I am ready to take control.
But for now, I'm going to go and slip into my swimsuit and head over to the resort pool (pictured above) with my mom and the girls. The kids are working out with my mom's trainer today and I'm going to lounge in the sun with a book and let my skin soak in the vitamin d.
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