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Concord, California, United States
I am a sometimes-writer, everyday mama, creative failure and experimental cook. I am interested in living a beautiful life, spending time with my family and making things that I can feel proud of. When I'm by myself I'm usually outside. Don't bother calling because chances are that I didn't bring my cell phone because I couldn't find it. If you see me walking, it's because I lost my keys and if you see me with only one child... I'm probably in big trouble.

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Big Success!

Big news!  This morning I reached my goal weight.  Since April 12th I've lost 55 lbs.

I'm going to copy/paste the entry that I wrote into my calories counter today and post a few pictures that I took of myself this morning.  I don't have a full length mirror, but I did my best to get full body shots of myself!

I am feeling proud and strong.  This has been a battle.  I will try to put it into words more eloquently at another time when I'm not so tired!

I MET MY GOAL!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have lost 55 lbs!!!!!!!!!

I am not skinny. No one would look at me and think that I had the "perfect body" or looked like a super model, but my BMI is now 23 and my goal weight has been reached.

I guess that this is where my real work begins. Truthfully, I thought, "I'm not thin enough though. I thought I'd be so much thinner when I got here..." And I thought, "maybe just ten more pounds..." But I recognize this as disordered thinking. It will be ten now and then ten more and then ten more. I have worked hard to get here and I am going to seriously enjoy my life!

I have lost and gained these same pounds over and over and over again in my life, but this time is different. This time I have unlearned a lot of terrible behaviors and semi-psychotic food guilt and obsession. I moved the focus off of losing weight and onto nutrition and I, for the first time in my entire life, formed a good, healthy relationship with food. This was a battle and I am a WARRIOR.

My new goal is to maintain this weight for 6 months, not going above or below it by more than 3 lbs. I work out 6 days a week and will continue to do so, as I really love it. CC tells me that I need to be eating about 2300 calories a day to maintain my current weight. That's a pretty drastic increase from the 1500 that I generally eat now. I'm increasing my calories target to 1900 per day and I'll see what happens. If I continue to lose, I'll do another increase up to 2300. I'll just tinker with it a bit until I get it right! I'll also stay here and keep aiming for A's on my nutrition grade.

Thank you so much for all of the support. This community has been a lifesaver for me. I could never have made this happen without it. I really appreciate every one of you.


  1. Congrats!! That is very awesome! and you are totally skinny, nice work! hopefully one day again i can work out as much as you have been. it is indeed a very enjoyable thing.

  2. You look freakin' amazing! I'm so proud of you! You're an inspiration to me. :)

  3. Thanks guys!

    Anthony, I have learned that on days that I work out I am unlikely to stress eat. My body just does something else with the stress. I also have really struggled with food guilt, which makes me give up on good health because in order to feel okay I just would need to ignore what I was eating. Working out has also negated this. Learned to love the treadmill has been the best skill I've ever acquired!

    Erika, Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I miss your blog!

  4. I miss writing, too, so I know I need to get back to doing it. Life has been pretty busy with my college classes back in session. I'm taking a full course load (4 classes) so I've usually got my nose stuck in a textbook or I'm writing papers and taking part of online discussions in the class forum (required for my grades).

  5. I can sort of relate. My life feels very busy and I'm not in school. Just with the school year beginning for the girls. Also, I started working for my dad and have the room parent responsibilities. When I have a few minutes to write I've been working on my cookbook... not blogging. But I want to change that because I have some watermelon pictures that I need to put up!

  6. anna, i am so proud of you! you look incredible. more importantly, you are healthy and happy. i love you!

  7. You look and I'm sure feel, awesome Anna. I am so proud at what you have accomplished. I now look to you for my daily inspiration and motivation.

  8. You are so beautiful! Keep us the positive reinforcement! I love you!

  9. I agree with Laura - you look awesome! But discovering the joys and benefits of exercise and having a good relationship with food is more important! Congrats!!